Thursday, July 31, 2014

Clomid Round 1: Jumping Back Into the Fertility Game

I have been so torn about getting pregnant with our second child. Origionally I wanted to start trying as soon as I was cleared by my doctor, but like most naïve people I underestimated what a toll having a baby would do to me. For the past couple of months I have been feeling better, more me, and I have struggled each cycle on if it it was finally time.

The months slid by. I had the prescription of Clomid, my fertility treatment, there on the bathroom counter… but I did nothing. Most of it has to do with the trying, the failing, the terror and the potential tragedy of losing yet another baby.

This month I decided to just hold my breath and jump. As terrifily as facing my demons are, not at least trying for another child is worse. And I am not getting any younger over here people. Especially if I want another two or three.

So I took my pills and I went to my doctor. I truly love my doctor, she is amazing and compassionate and I feel super safe with her handing the reins of helping me to conceive. Sadly her waiting room times leave me annoyed. Not annoyed enough to leave her but sitting in a waiting room for an hour and a half with a toddler sucks.


I have two eggs ready and she let me know when I would ovulate, science is an amazing thing. When I got pregnant with my Little Cricket we got pregnant our first cycle. I am praying so hard that that miracle happens again for us this time.



I am excited and terrified at the same time. Counting the days, yearning for another little cherub in my arms.

Wish us luck.

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