Tuesday, February 4, 2014

My Cup Runneth Over

I like schedule, a plan, to keep busy. I am at my best when I am pushing myself the hardest… the only problem with that is sometimes full can get too full. And things that are too full spill, and cause me to slip up, and fall down, and maybe break a hip. No my hip isnt broken but I have filled my schedule too full and I am starting to feel the aftereffects of the spillage.

I am a Libra, and I don’t really believe much of this astrology stuff…however with that being said I cannot help but realize that my cross to bear is trying to achieve balance.

“It's the Scales that symbolize Libra, and just like that balancing mechanism wants to stay even, Libras want to be on an even keel.”

Right now I have a 2 hour dance class on Monday, a Gymboree class on Tuesday, the Farmers market on Wednesday (and I am crazy to be considering a swimming class as well in the afternoon), a mommy and me class on Thursday and Fridays left for a billion other things that always come up. Generally I don’t schedule more than one thing a day or else I never have time to clean the house, run other errands, manage my business and get my son down for his two naps and three solid meals. My head is spinning there just isnt enough time in the day for everything that has to get done, let alone things that I want to get done, and sadly things that would be nice to get done are forever in my past.


So my cup is running over, which in my mind means that I am failing. Iknow this is a character flaw. My only fault is for putting too much on my plate. And yet knowing something and feeling something are two different things. I know also that this is a giant adjustment, that I have to give myself time, but I feel like I am nine months in… when will I start getting my rythme back.

So here I am two months behind on my blog. With my cup running over. With a ‘broken hip’ and I am bogged down with everything so I emotionally eat. I cannot exercise still because of my planters faciitis. I start gaining weight back. And I start obsessing about my weight again.

Time to start slimming down the schedule so I can make more time for me.

1 comment:

paul peggy zeus said...

The circle of life. . .you have always been a doer. I don't think you'd know any other way.

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