Monday, January 6, 2014

Soon, it is Going to Happen Soon, Or At Least I Hope it Will

I have a list of things that I want to get done, that I need to get done, that I have to get done or we wont eat. I am having such a hard time with the balance of it all, with the sacrifice. I love being a mom and this new time in my life is beyond fulfilling and exciting. However I am an OCD perfectionist that wants to have it all. I am not a procrastinator but there is just never enough time in the day to get all I want to get accomplished. Soon is slowly becoming my mode of operation and I am slowly becoming to hate what I perceive to be a failure.

I want to have a clean house, laundry that is always caught up, a business that runs smoothly, my errands to get done in a timely manner, my Little Cricket nutured and given undivided attention, my family fed good wholesome organic well rounded healthy made from scratch meals, my blog caught up on, continue working on my skills as a photogragrapher, finish my cookbook….. the list gones on and on.

So for now I am taking a step back. I am taking deep breaths and I am giving myself some wiggle room. If the laundry piles up, or if my blog gets behind, or if I have to push some things off until tomorrow or next week I have to know that the world will not end. My Little Cricket isnt going to be this young and needy forever. I just have to continue to massage my life to fit a new normal. These growing pains, they are hard.

P.S. the Christmas decorations are still up and because I am sick and terribly behind on everything they may just stay up until Easter.

1 comment:

paul peggy zeus said...

Take it easy, enjoy life while it is right in front of you. These days won't always be there for you.

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