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Friday, August 24, 2012

Depression: Is Life Better with Blinders

Have you seen the movie the matrix, you know the one where they gave this techy computer guy a choice of taking the blue pill, which would leave him how he is, or take the red pill, which would reveal the truth. He ended up taking the red pill and the reality he found was not good.

Therapy has been going well, I still hate going, I still chafe against the process but the hardest part of therapy is dealing with the reality of my shortcomings and the shortcomings of those around me. In essence therapy has taken away hope that the unchangeable could maybe one day change. I asked my therapist how she felt, being a hope killer and all, and she said that it is the hardest part of her job and also the point where the patient becomes more settled. It was a hard lesson for me to learn, basically a kid that got told that Santa doesn’t really exist.

I left feeling deflated and contemplative. A few days later I was watching a movie, The Hunger Games, and a quote shot me out of my chair, the two characters were talking about how to control the masses and one of the character’s stated:

“The only thing stronger than fear is hope.”

I have always believed in the power of thought. I believe that if you think happy you have a better chance of being happy. I believe in setting a goal and running as hard as you can to achieve it. I believe that I can change and I believe that people can change if they want too. Now I don’t think that people should go around in an augmented completely disjointed reality. The blue pill isn’t the way to go I’m sure, but then again I am not so sure that the red pill is going to do me any good either. In my reality I decided I am going to choose the purple pill, just enough truth and just enough reality to keep my hope alive.

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I have a feeling I will be having yet another philosophical conversation with my therapist about this again next week.

1 comment:

paul peggy zeus said...

I'm sorry that reality sucks some times. I wish there was a magic button to push to make it all better. I LOVE YOU!!

P.S. We just recently watched the Hunger Games too. I loved how the girl refused to play the way they wanted and WON in the end. GREAT MOVIE!

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