Sunday, June 24, 2012

Sunday Skinny: Try, Fail, Repeat (however may times it takes until you succeed)

I finally admitted to myself a little over two years ago that I had an eating disorder, see here. Since then I have tried anti-depressent medication, I have tried countless diets, I have been going to therapy (and still am) for two years, I have attempted to wrangle the binge eating beast and no matter how determined I am I have always failed. I am so sick of fighting, of trying over and over again just to fail. But success isnt for people that quit and no matter how large the stick that is used to keep knocking me down, no matter how times I fall to my knees I WILL KEEP GETTING BACK UP. Yes shouty capitals are needed because eventually, one time, if I do not give up and if I keep my hope alive, I will succeed.

“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow”.
- Mary Anne Radmacher

So here I am again with my Sunday Skinny. Here I am making a commitment to getting to where I want to be. Here is me saying 'NO' to failing and saying 'YES' to trying again. I started this week on another elliptical goal. 30 days, 30 minutes. Ms. Pool Shark is joining me on this challenge; it is always easier with a buddy.

“The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized – never knowing.”
- David Viscoutt

But not only do I have her encouraging me it seems that all my favorite people are making a commitment to becoming healthier. My parents have been changing their eating habits over the years and are constantly adopting new strategies. They have lost so much weight and look amazing. My sister in law Mrs. Lambchop is on a running goal, my sister-in-law Mrs. Painter is walking daily and losing weight, Mrs. Dancer is on her journey with Lean for Life and Ms. Ivey is working on her fitness and eating habits. Everywhere I turn, everyone I talk to seems to be on a better path and it is so uplifting. All the phone calls, and texts and little checkups help immensely.

“Whatever I have tried to do in life, I have tried to with all my heart to do it well; whatever I have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself completely; in great aims and in small I have always thoroughly been in earnest.”
- Charles Dickens

So this week I am focusing on getting in the swing of exercising and next week I will work on my eating habits. It is my goal to constantly work, to unfailing strive, to be better than myself. And one glorious day I will have everything I ever wanted.



Jess said...

Here Here!!! May all our fabulous dreams come true!! xoxo

paul peggy zeus said...

Mom says: Way to go!!

Dad says take a picture of all your meals every day and keep track of everything you eat. Count all calories < 1500 a day max.

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