Sunday, November 13, 2011

Sunday Skinny: Week 28

My scale is still missing and although it puts a weird spin on my Sunday Skinny’s by not updating my weight I find that instead of being all neurotic about it I am happier without the scale. For years now, between dieting and failing and dieting again and again, I have been a slave to that scale. Sometimes ignoring it, sometimes rejoicing in it, but mostly stepping on it and berating myself for not being strong enough, good enough, diligent enough to get that number down. I didnt realize the mental stress I was under until the scale went missing.

Instead of worrying about that number I am now focused more on how I feel. Instead of beating myself up for NOT reaching the ‘goal’ I set for that week instead I am noticing that clothes are fitting looser and that my workouts are getting easier. I am not sure if that scale has gone down in the past two weeks and although I feel a little weird not knowing weather I am passing or failing I find that I am happier.

So universe I am thankful that despite my digging the scale is still missing. Perhaps you even went so far as to break it. I am taking this time and this gift and letting my body make my choices instead of my mind getting in a tizzy about amy weight loss GPA.

Weight Gain Round 5: 210 pounds. 20 pounds gained when I lost the baby.

Weight Gain Round 4: 190 pounds. I lost weight for the wedding and then I gained it all back plus an additional 10 pounds. The wedding gave me a date to reach for but once that day passed all my plans fell apart and the bingeing started again. BLAST IT!!!

Weight Gain Round 3: 180 pounds. When my brother passed away I started bingeing regularly to cover my emotions and gained another 30 pounds.

Weight Gain Round 2: 150 pounds. I gained 15 pounds when I tackled that large project at work and worked all those long hours for a year.

Weight Gain Round 1: 135 pounds. I gained the inevitable ‘I’m in a comfy relationship’ 10 pounds after I started dating my husband.

Start weight when I moved to California 125.

GOAL WEIGHT = 135-150 pounds


paul peggy zeus said...

Good job, just toss that scale out once you do find it!!

lilmansworld said...

Yeah your parents have the right idea of just going to target/walmart and weighing yourself. All the pounds you guys are losing are jumping onto mine anyways.....boo

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