Sunday, September 18, 2011

The Sunday Skinny: Week 20

I am a Libra and although I am only peripherally interested in the zodiac I cannot help but see that there ARE some cold hard truths to my sign that despite my pessimism I cannot deny. As a little background about Libra’s.

Libra sign is the scales and is ruled by Venus, the planet of love, beauty and social grace. A cardinal sign, creative Libra governs partnerships, the arts, and making sense of self in relation to others. It is an air sign so people seek aesthetic pleasure, balance in relationships and a harmonious environment. In spite of your need to be liked, and reluctance of confrontations, you are surprisingly strong willed. You set out to accomplish your chosen goals and will find ways to succeed one way or another, usually by using your charm and wit. The “iron fist” in a “velvet glove” approach is the key to your success. If you become convinced nothing more is to be gained no matter what you do, you won’t hesitate to walk away from a situation with no further explanation or thought of returning. The balance is Libra’s symbol, and you require balance in your life. Libra’s are the only sign to be represented by an inanimate object. This says something about the Libra objective – to be fair and balanced in everything in a detached way. At best, Libra can view complex situations, maybe emotionally high charged ones, and come to a balanced view based on fair consideration of all the options.

Emotional, physical, and psychological pleasure comes to you from beauty in all its forms. Books, music, flowers, and perfume are typical delights. Social grace begins with good manners, extends to high level diplomacy, and ends with abhorrence of disagreeable confrontations. You promote peace and harmony, and usually opt to bypass hostile confrontations whenever some other method can be employed.

You can exert impressive physical energy at times, but your stamina tends to run in cycles. You work hard and play hard, then collapse into inertia until nature restores the balance.

Traits of a Libra...
- desired popularity
- loves art
- neat
- dresses up for the occasion
- slight perfectionist
- narcissism
- charitable
- bossy at times
- plans ahead
- attention to detail
- loves public service

- beauty
- gifts
- debates
- attention
- intellectual conversations
- admiration
- credit cards
- mingling
- colors and textures

- noise
- confusion
- sloppiness
- ugliness
- dirt
- pressured decisions
- being rushed
- being late
- criticism

So my takeaway is balance and it is true I am always trying to find the center, because only in the center am I ever truly happy. Right now, with how my life is, I am so unbalanced. Which basically translates to feeling completely out of wack! I find I do well on my diet, I do well on exercising and that I can usually keep it up for a few weeks. Then out of the blue something happens, because you know this is life, and that something throws a curve ball to my balance. As I struggle to get ahold of whatever happened I loose my focus on eating, I stop exercising and then I get annoyed with myself. The annoyance translates to me feeling like I am failing and then that failing feeling translates into more binge eating until the weight loss of the past few weeks creeps back on. Which then leads into the mad scramble to lose the weight again and I start the cycle all over again.

I am so sick of the cycle. My solution is put myself in a vacuum. Buy a ticket to the middle of nowhere, a place where life cannot get in the way of doing what I need to do. Of course by eliminating the stress in my life would go perfect in theory. Sadly no matter how much I want to no one can run away from their life. So I am left with the question of how to re-teach myself not to let stress rule my eating and not to let life’s inevitable ups and downs ruin my goals with my weight loss.

If I can just figure that out, learn how to keep my balance always then I think I can achieve my weight loss goals. Until then I am in the middle of the ocean failing around in my little boat lost in the storm.

Weight Gain Round 5: 210 pounds. 20 pounds gained when I lost the baby.

Weight Gain Round 4: 190 pounds. I lost weight for the wedding and then I gained it all back plus an additional 10 pounds. The wedding gave me a date to reach for but once that day passed all my plans fell apart and the bingeing started again. BLAST IT!!!

Weight Gain Round 3: 180 pounds. When my brother passed away I started bingeing regularly to cover my emotions and gained another 30 pounds.

Weight Gain Round 2: 150 pounds. I gained 15 pounds when I tackled that large project at work and worked all those long hours for a year.

Weight Gain Round 1: 135 pounds. I gained the inevitable ‘I’m in a comfy relationship’ 10 pounds after I started dating my husband.

Start weight when I moved to California 125.

GOAL WEIGHT = 135-150 pounds


Inzodda said...

I believe I would have been the first to tell you about being the scales and your goal in life being to find balance, years and years ago. It is a struggle. It may be a life long journey. The best you can do is NEVER GIVE UP ON A BETTER YOU!!!!

lilmansworld said...

haha likes credit cards lol

paul peggy zeus said...

You are the most self interested person I know.

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