Sunday, May 22, 2011

The Sunday Skinny: Week 3

Every single time I try to lose weight I have turned to thedailyplate.com. It’s a calorie tracker, which of course is a must when trying to lose weight in my book.

The first time I logged on was New Years Day in 2008. I had just gotten engaged and I was unhappy at my weight of 180 pounds. So like most brides-to-be I decided to lose weight. Over the next 9 months I managed to drop 12 pounds, but the weight was stubborn and to be honest I could have tried harder. Still I was proud of that 12 pound loss.

In September of that same year I had a freak out. It was a month and a half to the wedding date, it should have been the happiest time in my life, and instead it was a glittery thing to keep my eye on so I could ignore my depression. The last minute planning, work and the stress pulled me down. In September I cracked and gained all 12 pounds back that I had lost PLUS an additional 10 pounds. Instead of my wedding day 12 pounds down I was instead 22 pounds up. AWESOME!

I went back to tracking calories randomly for the next two years. I would lose some but then something in life would happen and I would gain it back again. I knew the cycle had to stop so with much convincing from family and friends I started therapy. I stopped ignoring the problems I had with food, I stopped ignoring my depression and I got help.

Therapy has been hard for me but it has created some amazing results. With my depression better under control I felt like I could challenge myself to lose the weight yet again. One of these times something has to work. So I am posting my weight gain chart over the past two years.


It zigs and zags horribly and I am not proud of that. However I am proud of the far right hand side where that graph line starts going down. I plan to keep it there.

I was never a big kid, in fact I was always a skinny Minnie until the age of 26ish. All my major weight gains revolve around traumatic events and stems from my need to eat when I am abysmally unhappy. I am not sure how to weather these storms better; I just hope that each time I get better until one day I am thin, happy and that I no longer struggle with food.

This week the scale read 187.5 pounds, which is a loss of 2 pounds. Considering I found myself out of commission for the last three days (laser foot surgery) and am bound to no exercise for at least 7 days I was super happy with that number.

Weight Gain Round 5: 210 pounds. 20 pounds gained when I lost the baby. 05/15/2011

Weight Gain Round 4: 190 pounds. I lost weight for the wedding and then I gained it all back plus an additional 10 pounds. The wedding gave me a date to reach for but once that day passed all my plans fell apart and the bingeing started again. BLAST IT!!!

Weight Gain Round 3: 180 pounds. When my brother passed away I started bingeing regularly to cover my emotions and gained another 30 pounds.

Weight Gain Round 2: 150 pounds. I gained 15 pounds when I tackled that large project at work and worked all those long hours for a year.

Weight Gain Round 1: 135 pounds. I gained the inevitable ‘I’m in a comfy relationship’ 10 pounds after I started dating my husband.

Start weight when I moved to California 125.

GOAL WEIGHT = 135-150 pounds


P.S. after reading a few other blogs this week on their weight loss journeys I decided to also incorporate some rewards in this whole weight loss struggle of mine. Since I lost those 20 pounds I have been trying to think of something I want that does not involve an entire large chocolate cake with double fudge chocolate icing and sprinkles. NO CAKE... instead I decided on something I have been wanting for a long time. Laser hair removal here I come!

Now I need to think of some incentive when I get to cross of Weight Gain Round 4. HUMMMM any suggestions?


Nicole said...

You are doing so amazingly well and you are such an inspiration to me!!! Congrats on all of your progress and good idea to start incorporating the rewards for yourself! Keep up the good work gorgeous!

paul peggy zeus said...

WOW! look at you go girl! you look amazing and so happy too. Now you are well on your way to reaching your goals. You'll feel better too!

Ivy said...

Looking good, girl!

lilmansworld said...

good for you missy :)

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