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Thursday, April 28, 2011

Baby Brain: Empty Nest

I know it is a waiting game, I know stressing about it isn’t going to get me pregnant any sooner, in fact stressing about it may prevent myself from getting pregnant at all but universe... come on already... WHEN!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sick of waiting. So, so, so incredibly sick. It has been eighteen months since we starting to try and get pregnant. It has been nine months ago that I got pregnant and it has been five months since I lost my baby. I took two months to let my body rest and recover and now it has been ANOTHER three months of trying to get pregnant.

Did you get that eighteen months and I am still without a baby. I am upset because I am supposed to be nine months pregnant but instead I am just waiting to get pregnant again.

Everywhere I go I see babies, every day I pray to become a mother, every single day I wait... the waiting is the hardest part.

When is it my turn.

3 comments:

paul peggy zeus said...

Just believe that you will and think about how much more precious that little life will be to you once you are finally blessed. I know how hard it's been for you, but trust in the Lord that He knows what's best and will deliver your little bundle when he knows you are ready for it. I love you!!

Danielle said...

I'm sorry about your loss. I didn't know you lost a baby. I haven't been through this same thing you are going through, but I found in other situations that things I want come to me when I stop thinking about them.

lilmansworld said...

I know its hard :( But cherish you time with Mr Rogue for now. That's hard too, but he is your family. I know one day you will be a glowing goddess!

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