Saturday, September 25, 2010

A No Win Situation for All

I have been agonizing over writing this post for a long time and even now two months later I am writing with tears running down my face. While I was in Europe I got the most terrible news… my cat Picasso was killed. He was found in the back yard, the back door sometimes catches and doesn’t latch properly, being an indoor cat he was not allowed outside but with a gapping door he ventured into the back yard. We are not entirely sure what happened but the autopsy showed that he was killed by dog bites. It is our belief that our new puppy Phoenix, who we rescued five months ago and is now 11 months, somehow killed the cat. Weather it was playfulness or defending the backyard as her territory we will never know.

I came home from my trip crushed because not only did I lose my beloved cat, who I have had for 12 years, but now we had to make the painful decision about what to do with Phoenix. After weeks of watching her behavior and some advice from a trainer we decided to find her a new home. It seems that Phoenix, like some dogs do, has developed a prey drive. It is natural, it is in her blood, she wants to hunt small things unfortunately we have another cat in the house, we have small children in the house often and I do not trust her. So we have sadly made the decision to readopt her out to an older couple or to a couple with older children via the trainers advice. She isn’t a bad dog, she just isn’t the right dog for our household anymore and honestly I don’t think I could ever trust her again.

So I am taking her every Saturday to the dog fair I adopted her from. We will keep her in our household (just much more strictly managed) until we find her a new home, this will cause less stress on her and will allow us to be part of finding her the right kind of home. Through all this process I am heartbroken because my animal family of four is now going to be an animal family of two. There is no right answer here, we are just trying to do the best we can with what we have and try to look forward with hope.


Jess said...

Big hugs! I know that was tough. I love you. We all loved Pico. I believe you are doing the right thing by Phoenix. She just needs the right kind of home and will be happier when she finds it as well. Your family of two will grow. Pico had a very long full life. He was well loved and well cared for which is all they really ask for. xx

paul peggy zeus said...

I love you so much! My heart goes out to you in the loss of your lovely kitty cat. You are a good mommy to your pets and you will find the right place for Phoemix.

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