Thursday, March 11, 2010

Baby Brain: The Waiting Continues

Sadly today I got my period which means for those of you a little bit slower that we are not pregnant this month. I really thought in my heart that I was pregnant but I guess I was wishing it into existence. It is only month number one and most healthy couples can take up to six months to succeed. And mama always said

“If at first you don’t succeed, try try again”

I was not really prepared for the roiling of emotions that I had. From disappointment that I had read my body wrong, or hoped symptoms into my body, and that I would have to wait another month for our hoped for positive result; and then to weirdness because I had always hoped NOT to be pregnant. It was odd the combating that part of me that has always rejoiced in getting my period.

I know the worst thing to do is stress myself out over this. I know that I just need to relax and give it time but I am not a very patient person and this month has already tried that limited bucket of patience I do have. However with that I know that this is not something I want to even try to get all nifty gritty and controlling with. What I mean is that I don’t want to analyze everything so much that the magic gets sucked out of the fact that my husband and I are joyously starting a family. Now fast forward six months if I am still not pregnant we will be forced to start analyzing away, but for now I am just going to sit back and enjoy this extra month of being able to do what I want, when I want, without a tiny baby to worry over.

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