Monday, April 6, 2009

Mirror Mirror

I like to think that I am a person that is constantly looking at myself and thinking how can I do better, how can I give more or be more or do more. I worry about being stagnant, about not reaching to be the best that I can be, hence the self evaluation process that I try to do often. I think more people should look within and strive to be better than they were the day before. In my opinion this is one of the purposes of life, to be the best you can.

Lately I have been thinking about the way that I speak and how I communicate with people. I have been thinking about the words I say and how they affect everything around me. I think this is becoming even more clear to me lately with the fact that I am writing this blog, which is so public to so many, and writing it has caused me to be careful with the things that I write, which in turn has made me reassess the way that I talk. Some things that I have been considering to start attempting to apply in my everyday life:

Make sure the things I say to someone I would say in front of the person I am speaking about. Most of the time I am just venting to friends or family, but that venting is a sign that there is an issue. And the only way to really resolve that issue is to speak to the person I am upset with not a third party person that I just want to gossip with.

I have a hard time sometimes keeping my temper in and not going off about this or that when really if I would just take a deep breath and reassess what is really important then I would probably not say many of the negative things, things that I will regret later.

I love being the center of attention. This has been something that I have been working on for a long long long long time but I believe it behoves me to put this on the list because the way I speak, speak to much, or think in a conversation about what I will say next instead of really listening. I really believe I have made a lot of progress with this but I still feel that I am a LONG way from really truly not trying to be in the spotlight.

Reassess what you say to people. Really think about what it is you are trying to get out of what you have to say. If something that you say or do is not going to create a positive outcome then I want to keep it to myself.

This I think is the hardest for me and I think it is because I am an artist. I love to exaggerate, if the fish was 3 feet long I will say it was 10 feet, if I walked 1 mile I will say I walked 30 miles. Maybe I just have the old soul of a storyteller but man oh man I LOVE me some good stories. That is another reason that I write on this blog, it is to help me be more accountable to what really happened rather than that larger than life exaggeration that my creative mind likes to change the truth from over time.

So these are some things that I am working through right now. I am sure you will see me slip up a lot but I like to know that I am at least trying to get to that perfect me.

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