Monday, March 2, 2009

God Is Preparing Me

So after a month and a half I like many of the people in the United States am still unemployed and what is worse is that I have not had one single interview, NOT ONE. I am lucky in the fact that my husband is able to provide for both of us until I find a new job, but until that day comes I have had to make some very unsettling sacrifices to my spending habits. My shopping and vacation habits in particular. Now I know that I am one of the lucky ones that at least we are not loosing our home or unable to feed ourselves, we are not in dire straights like some and I am SO THANKFUL for that. But I can’t help but feel a little sad that the life I had been leading is now something that I have to change. I know that this is another part of growing pains to learn when you can no longer do whatever the hell you want, I am learning to make sacrifices but I don’t like it, not one single bit!

Maybe God is preparing me for making sacrifices now by taking away my job, maybe he is preparing me for when I am a mother, when I will have to make much larger sacrifices then not having a new pair of shoes or a fancy LA dinner. Things like spending almost all of my free time cleaning up baby excrements, living on another person constantly changing sleeping and eating schedule, and having to keep alive a tiny human to small to take care of itself.

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