An Addictive Personality

I realized from a young age, probably 12 or 13 that I could never do things in half measures. I remember it clearly; I had a deep driving force that would not allow me to detour once I set my mind to something. From that point and continuing throughout my life I have had to be careful of the things that I allow myself to do, too terrified that if I allowed just a bit that I would slip down a slope that I could not crawl out of.

For that reason I have NEVER touched a drug; smoking, any type of narcotic NOTHING. I even waited until I was 20 before I had my first drink and past that I usually only had one drink once in a while because of a fear that once I got addicted I would NEVER be able to stop.

Call me weak or call me preventative but I am happy that I learned so early on what type of personality I have and how to avoid the pitfalls it could potentially create. I am proud that I used my addictive personality in a positive way to challenge myself rather than a destructive way of falling down a rabbit hole.