I Am Anxious

Taking deep breaths
I am feeling a little tinsy bit overwhelmed today
More huge deep breaths
Ok more than a tinsy bit I THINK I AM FREAKING OUT
“Deeeeeeeeep breath.”
and completely lost on what to do
“Ahhhh getting light headed maybe to much air?”
You could call it taking a dive, going off the deep end, heading for the loony bin
Head between the knees
It has been building ever so slowly.

And no it is not from my Vendi Chi Tea Latte that I have been injecting directly into my heart (I wish). I am a huge ball of nervous energy that won’t seem to go away. I can’t sleep, nothing tastes good. This wedding is consuming my life. I am trying to stay on top of everything, but you can’t help feeling like you are a beetle under a very large shoe when EVERY TIME you cross something off the list you add 8 more things. Will the day ever get here? I have heard that brides say the time gets shorter and shorter. I just wish it was here already.